Sunday, January 16, 2011
This might be the last photo that you took with me. Or let me say is the last photo we took tgt.It's alright, since you have said so much that you are stress with me. I totally understand it.
Put it simpler, i'm a burden to you.So you just want to realese your burden away. I know
you are tired of my attitude, my temper etc. It's okay, i will forget you and contiune with my
life. When i'm sick you aren't there so be it. Just let me face it alone. As you said i should be
independent. Although I really hate you. cause you are the 1 who promise me that no matter what happen you will be there for me and accomapny me. But you are the one who put a full stop in this love story. Right now, you can only think of the stress you are facing, but for me
i spent the whole night recalling back the place we went and the fun we had. I never thought
of the stress because whenever i see you, i will smile right away.I'm currently sick plus the hurt you giving me and family problems totally is like hell, i'm going to break down sooner or later. Thought you will lend me your shoulder when i need you or give me a little surprise to make me happy, end up you are leaving me. I will bear it alone. No medicine can cure me.
I remember you said that" we have no reason why we should break" . It makes me wake up from everything and stick with you. I told everyone of my friends that you are the best bf i ever had and they are envious of me. I felt so blessed at that moment of time. I did alot of things for you that i never thought of doing it. Think back, i really sacrifice alot.
However, i know you dont love me as much as before, the reason is the same. I understand it too. Somehow we just got to say bye to each other, and contiune of own live. Never thought of this before and it really make me shock and disappointed. The tears that i drop for you are countless time.Maybe we really should end it here so that you wont so stress anymore or
just find an open realtionship rather to suffer with me. You have choice, so just persue what you want. I wont be with you anymore, wont joke with you, wont make you smile, wont care for you.
1Year5Months1week4days i counted from the very 1st month we are together and it stops here.
Nothing last forever you remember ? But i write in my letter before i will be your nothing.
Everything that's related to you i will earase it and start again with a piece of white paper again.
The diary that i always write for you, i will keep it to recall back the happy moments we had.
Lastly, bye my love ): I will miss you.